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had a satisfying mac breakfast with von:D:D:D

head for netinfra lesson:(

was fiddling with the itouch.hahas.use it to surf the net.:)

din hear what tutor was talking about.

then suddenly,i heard my name.LOL.shocked.hahas

she asked me to do something on the board.

saying she know i want to do well..bla bla bla..wth.lols

so embarrassed.hahas.

got back term test paper:):)

was very satisfied with the result.

my efforts were shown in this result:)thanks a lot:)

after lesson,went for lunch.

then went to tm shop around.

then back to school around 3.

watched a bit of tao hua xiao mei on azlin laptop.lols

head for cds lesson.tutor was exceptionally early today.hahas

took back term test paper.:)

satisfied with it:D:D:D

went home after lesson

im really happy today.of the result.hahas.

but im worried for digicom.wonder what kind of result im expecting to take.sobs.

i saw him today.lols.the feeling seem to came back.hahas.but i do not want myself to fall in love with someone again:(

so shall not think about it.hehes

everytime i wanna blog,i just forget about the things that i wanted to blog about…hais.sians

feeling kinda heavy in my heart today:( i dunno why too

morning had mac breakfast with cousin and aunt:):):)

cancelled trip to Jurong point.as cousin could not finish up his work on time

but we went to tampines mall instead.hahahas

went to take my windows 7 upgrade from the post office.and we went for lunch.

felt very sian to eat at that time.everything seem to be like so tired.weird feeling.

walk for a while and went home.cousin continued his work.

while me and aunts,mum,and sis went to market.hahas.

nothing better to do.went to see clothes.lols

went to school at around 4 plus.looked for yiting:)

she never fails to make me smile:D:D

i dunno why i just forget about everything when i talk to her about other stuffs.hahas

she’s always so happy-g0-lucky:)never fails to cheer people up:)

guessed im just very tired?

lecture time,teacher announce another test coming up!

arghhhh,why are there always test?

studied hard,but efforts not shown sometimes.i dunno why too:(

how i wish i could go back to the time where there is a short getaway with my family:)

i wanna go back to genting/kl.

at least i can put down everything and really enjoyed myself

and and yiting reminded me,our main exam study week is during the new year week:(

sians…more and more sians.how to enjoy the new year?

hais.

nvm,looking on brighter side.hahas

got to find time for rebonding:D:D

but always when i planned,something came up,disrupt my plan…arghhhh.

got to complete those projects first….arghhhh

i have been thinking a lot during the holidays

i dunno what there is for me in the future.

i felt so useless.doing so many things.hais.

there’s nothing i can do good in

i felt so useless and stupid.

i wonder about my future.

wondering whether shld i continue on university study if im allowed?

but the answers that came up to my head are always negative.

i dunno what i can do!

i have no confidence in myself too:(

got to pulled up gpa,but i doubt i could do so.

i have no confidence of doing it..haissssss

i tried,but always giving up halfway.

where is the determination?

i had lost part of my determination ever since the holidays.

sometimes i wondered,why couldn’t we just enjoy life and not studying.hahas

must be dreaming..hahas.

sound so crap.hahas.i miss grandpa:(:(

i miss the times at night when we would go to his bed and tok to him,and he would scold us.hahas

everyone would be laughing…cause those are the real happiness

i miss him scolding me..hahas.his face expression.

during christmas eve gathering,we saw some videos on new year few years back when he is with us

it makes me think of him.when he was still ok,doing all the cooking.when we were making the raw food.the colours one.

we were like throwing up like no one business.hahas.and my grandpa was choosing the abalone to gif my grandma.

cause he said its a wastage not to eat the abalone.hahas.and we were finding it too.hahas.

his birthday celebration,when he was still smiling so happily:D

i miss his smile

just some random thoughts suddenly.hahas..

felt very tired i guess..feel like im drying up my battery soon.

needs to be recharged.hahas

bnu paper ended.its like finally

though i feel so stupid bout it.hahas

paper was damn easy.but due to stupid mistake.lols

anyway,i feel that i had really put in the effort for this paper

hopefully,my effort will be shown.hahas

thanks yiting,u taught me,after every paper,ask yourself whether i put in the effort.thanks

im feeling so stressed up already

i haven started on revising my bnu already

what am i doing already?

oh my god…i seem to be doing things aimlessly le..hais

i duno what i am doing…

orgcom is really giving me a big headache.

aren’t i lucky?to check through the scenario..hais.

but more trouble for myself.hahas.

fdmp,story tml submission.

orgcom also tml submission.hais

feel so stressed up:(:(:(

so many things to do

blame myself for going out on sat…:(

perhaps this is the reality

this is how life is.

i should really get used to it.

today had a heavy rain

cannot go back school.hahas

so bought an umbrella.

share with yvonne.hahas.

shoes all wet when we go back to class..lols

feel so weird..hehes.

after lab,went home and rest

change out of my shoes too:)

then back to school for lecture at 6

lecture was funny.hahas

 

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i feel so moody..hais

dunno why too…hais..

anyway,will not go think bout it.

perhaps listening songs could help me.hahas

bnu lecture was fun:)

and with my fren,yiting:):)

lecturer was being so lame.hahas

fructose=sweetest

thus,she told us,those who have sweetheart,now will become fructose heart.hahahas

and those who love to say you are the only one in my heart

now will change to you are the only one in my liver..lols

cause liver is the more important part in our body.hahas..

heart can be replaced but liver we have only one.hahahas.

couldn’t stop laughin when i thought of it.hahas

i really had fun during bnu lecture.

wasn’t that boring.hehes

 

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started lesson at 8.

as usual,talkings.hahas.

then do the lab exercise.

then walk around school deciding to go where.

in the end went to find rokiah to do orgcom project.

went to free access lab with amirah cause there’s the computer there.

but it turned out computer cannot use.hahahas.

off to meet desmond to hand him the storyboard.

then went to meet sis and cousin to eat mac.

off home….went to take a nap.

i dreamt of my grandfather…

how i wish he is still here now…

woke up to realise that all is a dream:(

went for dinner at 6 plus.

suddenly,i just feel like going to that place to look at those small children playing around…

just as if nothing is going to happen at all..hahas

thanks best friend:):)

was kinda stress up this few days.

i took such a long time to study just chapter one of bnu…oh my gosh..

still have another chapter to go…=(=(

after lab,could not find my friend.slack with rokiah..study bnu…

ahmirah came after that.

okay,they are really interesting people:)

especially ahmirah…

rokiah boyfriend too.hahas..

i was very stress to an extent…and with their chats,it makes me laugh till like..lols.

cause we were talking about someone.hahas.

saying that someone is someone’s oxygen.hahahas..cannot leave without her.hahahas

thats funny.lols

times up,went for lecture.lecture is always that interesting:):)

especially when there’s yiting there to accompany me:)hehes.

 

actually,i  don understand why does things happen this way

but i felt so much better:)

i must really thank best friend for being there for me always.

no matter whether she’s busy or not.

she’s always there:)

no matter,how busy we are,we still know we still have each other:)

i really miss the times we have conversations every night:)

thats so wonderful..hahas.

but now,we can’t.we still can sms each other:)hehes.

i look forward to the day we meet again:):)